I had begun a round in May -- but I did not see it through! I just wasn't in the right mindset! I wanted to enjoy my summer! Well... I have... I maintained my weight pretty well until last week -- I ate very clean, but I was on my feet most of the day working on a home project -- during that time I was retaining water and my weight was climbing (slowly!) I knew I could get it right back off .. but I decided now was the best time to begin my round and get it done before I leave to get my little girl in China!~ (Remember, we are adopting!) I hope to loose 30 pounds plus any water weight I gained last week.... My weight today was 194.4 -- I want to get to 165 or 170 -- which is lower than my wedding weight -- I hope to make it... I hope to stay on this till I get there... however today is day 6 and I already feel the drudgery of making it that long.
I printed a monthly calendar and when I look at it, it really isn't that long! So I need to just hang in there and take it day by day -- and hopefully the numbers will all work out and I will make my goal! I will come here often to vent and relay successes -- so I don't wear my family and friends out... I really want to do this without imposing any of this on them -- If I do make it, it will put me at 25 pounds to my goal of 150! I want to get to 150 so I can stay in between 150-160 the rest of my days! We shall see -- Since it has been a while since my last round, I am hoping for big success this round!
I do look to food for comfort and joy! It is shameful I know... but I think, umm... I sure would like this, or that...but am I really HUNGRY? the answer most times is "no - I am not" but there are times I am... I love to have people over to my house for socializing, and food is ALWAYS involved -- I don't do that a lot when I am on p2 -- because I am eating so strictly -- but really, I can make it doable...it is my fault for feeling isolated during this time!
My dd has been home for the summer and will move back in the dorms in about 2 weeks -- that will help keep me busy. I am starting Abby's 4th grade year in about that time as well _ (I want to get her a little ahead so when we go to China, she doesn't lag behind!) Structure really makes doing this much easier.... The whole family is home during the summer and all I want to do is have fun with them -- and that usually includes food! Good food! But let's face it, I will always have to watch what I eat! ALWAYS! but I have learned that I can have GOOD food that is comforting and yummy -- that is also good for me!
I want to come back to this posting and remind myself of my resolve-- sometimes I forget!
