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I really do not want to go back to HCG because I really want to learn to eat correctly and loose weight and manage my weight naturally!  If  for whatever reason I cannot do that, I will go back.. but I want to get HCG lingo out of my system and just do what I know to do -- Sugars are an issue for me... I no longer call my diet "My HCG Diet Experience" but rather "My TLB Diet Experience!" (TLB are my initials!)  -- I really want to get out of weighing each and every day (sometimes 4 or 5 times a day!) -- I want to weigh in 1 time per week... and just track what I do each week... right now it is LOW CARB -- grapefruit juice and salads and protein -- really it is no different than any other labled "Low Carb" diet -- yes I have carbs, good carbs.. I have veggies everyday at lunch and dinner -- I have some cheese (not tons!) I have protein, not TONS -- just a normal portion - but if I want more of anything I eat protein... and I am not snacking between meals... I do have some Chocolate Delight at my meals which is only Coconut Oil/cocoa and stevia with a few nuts in it... and I am drinking water -- I have been having 1 cup of coffee with hwc and xylitol -- I have been having Olive Oil/Balsamic Vinegar as dressing --  I really do not know what else to do to get the weight off.... I know I have to work in the exercise.  I purchased a stretch band and will begin using that.. I will do it 4 times this week.. that is my goal (for the number of reps of exercises that came with the instruction book - no matter what "time" that translates into -- My husband tells me we can walk together as the weather improves....)
When I say I have carbs: I have Grapefruit juice (100% unsweetened at each meal) and lettuce with red onion, tomatoes, artichoke hearts, and cheese as a basic salad-- with protein in it (either chicken or beef) -- Or on the side, I have a protein -- I have fat at each meal... not HIGH-- but adequate!  The fat would be olive oil in my dressing -- or cd-- or sauteing my chicken/beef in some oil/butter -- I do have taco salads (salsa, ground beef, lettuce, cheese, sour cream and occasionally guacamole, and red onion... ) -- I really can't see anything wrong with this.. .My protein is not as High as I have had it in the past... My veggies are about 6 loosely packed cups per day -- my fats are average-- and the only carbs are in my veggies and juice -- Protein and green for meals -- water, and some cd... this can't be bad!  Weighed 217.8 yesterday -- If I drop about 5 pounds this week, I know this will work for me... My friend tells me consistency is key!  and she is SO RIGHT!!!  so I want to do what I know to do, and not look back.... If my weight does not drop -- I really do not know what else to try!  Cut out more fat and more  protein? really?  Surely not.. .we will see.... how these next 2 weeks go and see what transpires!  God is good no matter what - -He makes me worth more than what the scales make me feel! 




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Today's info

Yesterday I ate:
Roast prepared with lite soy sauce and onion soup with green beans
tuna with a small amount of mayo
flounder
small amount of nuts
small piece of cheese
1 cup of coffee with half and half with stevia


I was up 1.2 this morning!  making my weight at 210.6

PRoblem: Not enough calories or protein! I gotta get that in!

Today so far:
small amount of nuts
Cheese and dill pickles
sauteed chicken on a salad with ranch dressing
2 egg whites
Planning on having Taco Salad for supper -- fixing to go eat a protein snack -- of what? I have no idea!
I am drinking my water, but need to drink more of it!

Weight today

My weight today was 212.6 -- Gotta get the next 14 lbs off QUICK!
Menu today:

1 grilled chicken salad with ranch
2 tbs Pecans
some cheddar cheese for snack
Water
Hamburger Patty with 1 piece of bacon and some cheese
salad with butter lettuce/red onion/ tomato with Italian dressing
1 avacado
Pecans for snack

May have a coffee for dessert, not sure yet! --
This menu was lower in protein than I needed... I think.;...
had 1 cup unsweetened grapefruit juice also. Let's see what the scales to tomorrow!

HUGE UPDATE!!!

OK... I have been like on BREAK since the last time I posted in!  In my last post I was 193 pounds!  Well... I would like to say I am that still or less... however, that would not be true!  I found it terribly hard to focus on loosing the weight as my adoption grew closer -- we traveled to China-- I had good intentions, but they were just that, intentions!  I had gained to 198 before China (Oct. 2012) -- and surprisingly enough, I did not gain in China -- when I ate terribly unhealthy while there! We returned home Nov. 1 - I tried to get back on track... I would do good, then bad, good, then bad... Holidays were here, stress from different corners of life -- and here I am -- I weight a whopping 215!!!  But, I am not down and out!  I am getting back on track! Sugar is a drug and enemy, no matter how it comes, in carb form or just raw, I  prefer mine in carb form (breads and potatoes!) it is a drug none the less!  So... as of today, it is out! I have to get my weight under control!  I have to get it where it needs to be and formulate a "lifestyle" that I can live with!  Yes, I hate watching EVERY SINGLE THING! -- but it is either that or stay FAT! I hate fat!  I hate feeling and looking like an unhealthy person!  I want it eliminated!  I am trying this without  HCG! No added hormones!  If I can't loose, then I guess I'll go back on it... but I am trying this the old fashion way -- no sugars/carbs other than that found in low glycemic veggies!  Good fats and a decent amount of protein for the day!  So... as a means of accountability I will use CalorieCount or Fitday.com to track my calories/protein-- or just post on here to keep a record! 
I will also take a picture, and track my weight like I did on HCG -- if I have fruit, only those that HCG allows -- however I did have unsweetened grapefruit juice today -- it was bitterly good!  :)  I am aquiring a taste for it!  I have decided no Xylitol either for at least 2 weeks to get sweetness out of my system! 
Today so far:
1/2 cup chicken salad that I made (cream cheese, chicken, celery and pecans)
1 piece of turkey breast
1 pickle
1/4 cup pecans
Water

I will have baked chicken for supper-- and a can of tuna for snack a little later on....
I have to work to get that protein in there!  I am going to try to make a protein shake if needed to up my protein intake!  I will track my weight tomorrow -- I have to make it down to 193 asap -- I feel good there!  Then from there I want to make it to 163!  then to 153-- I will consider that GOAL!!!! 
Exercise? I hate it!  I don't mind being honest!  I do hate it... however I know I have got to find a way to be more active and get that in there!  My friend tells me if I can just do 30min good 4 times per week and keep it up!  I have to make it happen!  I don't know just how I am going to do it  yet -- but I will do something today, even if it is just for 10 minutes!  It is COLD outside -- so walking does not sound good! 

Here is a picture of where I am today -- these are size 16 pants and they are tighter than they should be and a size 16/18 turtleneck -- I was getting into size 14's very nicely -- so I hate having my clothes be too tight on me right now! I HATE IT!! Food is just a temporal feel good, then you pay for it with  your weight, looks, health, etc!
Here are pics...yes, this hurts me to post them... but I am not concerned with vanity, I am concerned with accountability and the true desire to be in better health.