Same ol' Same ol' Same Ol'

It has been a while since I posted -- I have tried, failed, restarted -- repeat --   I have been working out for the past month -- and exercising --(prayfit dvd toning program with cardio)- I am at 213-- I have dipped down to 209 but it didn't stick -- I am going to start doing accountability HERE -- I will post what I am eating-- I am trying to follow THM for life-- not just to loose weight, but to have a lifestyle going here -- I want to keep working out -- weather I do Prayfit or TTapp or something else in a given day, the point is to "do something" --

Today I have had 2 eggs cooked in olive oil spray (just a tiny bit) with coffee (cream and xylitol - 1 tsp) -- Water, Water, Water and lunch was left over boneless,skinless thighs with a sugarfree/carb free bbq sauce concoction that I make (1 tbs low carb ketchup, lil' xylitol, garlic powder, onion powder and 1 tsp Worcestershire and hot sauce) something to give it flavor-- and I had 1 piece of "Skinny Chocolate" or "Chocolate Delight???" --

That is EVCO, Cocoa, ground up Xylitol and a tiny bit of nuts in each piece --- LOVE THAT STUFF! :)

 Supper will be a protein and a green (not sure yet!)-- and I am sure to have more "Skinny Chocolate" today -- Then thing is, I have been eating really good (in my opinion)  but with me not loosing, obviously I am not eating what works for my body to loose -- either not enough protein, not enough fat, too much of either one of these -- I don't know... I am going to try to do follow as much of THM as I can- and do a FP Cycle as soon as our fall break is over with (next week, Oct. 24--) and see how that goes- I typically drink 1 cup of coffee each day and water the rest of the time -- I really don't know how to eat any better -- but I do not incorporate all that THM says to, like "E" meals -- because they have carbs and I am afraid of that -- but obviously what I am doing is NOT working -- and I really want it to....   So there you have it...you know what I eat and do.... Maybe I will wait to start posting when I start my FP Cycle because I will be back from fall break --

Pictures as promised!

This is my accountability group!  I promised before photos -- so here you go.. I hope these are greatly improved by the end of the month!

So far today  I Have  had a Fat Stripping Frappe, (110 calories/20 gm Protein) Turkey breast (maybe 100 calories/VERY LOW FAT - 10gm protein) and good girl moonshine (0)-- I need more protein- and more fat!  Supper plans are a salad (Tomato, lettuce, cuke, red onion - small amount cheese with oil/vin dressing) fish cooked in coconut oil or similar - -

Any how here are the pics (Arghh!!!) this is painful for me... but hopefully I will be rejoicing later this month! (btw: My weight this morning was 215.8 -- I am 5.6 and 44 years old -- shooting for 190 for my first goal!!! -- ideally 185! but will be happy with 190!

New Beginning! Seriously!!!

I know I keep saying that!  Let me tell you TALK IS CHEAP!  I can talk the talk, but I cannot seem to walk the walk! I have stayed between 213 - 219 this entire spring and summer! Nothing will change until I do!~  I have to just formulate a plan and STICK WITH IT!  I have a plan.. and here it is!~

I started reading a book called "Trim Healthy Mama!" recommended to me by a close friend!  It is every diet that I have had success on and combined them all.. A lil' "Insulin Resistant Diet" Principles... A little HCG P2 and P3 Principles -- a lil "JUDD" principles and you kinda navigate through this and are to loose weight... however it is SLOW going -- Let me let  you in on a clue.. I am not a patient person! I had quick results on HCG -- I really do not want to do another round of full blown - with hormone - HCG! So.. with that being said... I have enjoyed eating the past 2 days without GORGING -- but I am counting them as load days like you have on HCG -- Tomorrow I will start VLCD Days and go straight! I do not want to tell anyone what I am doing --

• I am going to do P2 as much as possible - -taking B12 Oral Vitamins -- and drinking water like crazy and lemon water -- if I am in a bind and have to eat out, I will eat a p3 type meal (Steak, Salad, Green Beans, Asparagus, etc...) and get back to VLCD -- and weigh 1 time  per week! 

•  I have been doing TTapp for exercises (Along with my daughters - which are 7 and 10!) -- 

•  I will weigh on this Monday (taking tomorrow as a detox day) and count from there!  weighing in on each Sunday Morning. And try not to look back till I am 190 at which point I will stabilize and go from there -- 

I know I will always have to cut my sugars etc.. in order to maintain or loose weight!  I feel terrible at my current weight and only I can change that (well.. God is the only one really... I just have to do my part!) -- I will check in periodically and let you know my successes and sorrows!   I want to be faithful and consistent!  My 20 year old daughter has been loosing by cutting back. .she doesn't seem to have a sugar issue -- and she looks great!  I want to look and feel great too!~  I know with God's help, I can do ANYTHING! 
So, let's get this show on the road -- I will not follow strict Simeon's protocol --  but I will keep  my calories VERY low -- no sugar - lean beef etc.. the Trim Healthy Mama book has plenty of what they call "Fuel Pull" recipes that are like P2 recipes but they allow for more choices -- If I can't think of what to eat, I will pull out  my old P2 notes and go for old' favorites -- If all goes well in 30 - 40 days I can be where I want to be!~

P2 doesn't allow for exercise -- However TTapp  is low intensity -- I have been doing a 14 day boot camp with that (I am currently on day 12)-- then I will go to doing it 3 days per week (MWF) I will post a before Pic on Monday -- and then another pic to compare on July 31st as a picture check- in!  I need your help and prayers and cheering on -- (remember, I am not telling anyone in my "real" life -- so only you know!  So don't broadcast it! :) -- we will  just silently go through this together -- I don't even want my husband to realize I am doing something different -- I want to "blend into the background!" and then WAH LAH!!!!  He will be amazed that I am back to 190!  where I can wear a size 14 -- If I am going good -- I really , REALLY want to make it to the 160's (165???) which is lower than  my wedding weight -- but -- 1 short goal at a time... this one is it! 

Pic coming in the next day or 2!  Here we go...

Up and Down is all I can say!

Up and down is all I can say!  I am trying... I am currently 213.8 -- doing VLCD every other day -- which I do not like.. I would like to not be so restricted.. but if it yields result, how can I argue with that?  I don't even want to write about it.... off to do school with my girls!

New Blog Title!

I really do not want to go back to HCG because I really want to learn to eat correctly and loose weight and manage my weight naturally!  If  for whatever reason I cannot do that, I will go back.. but I want to get HCG lingo out of my system and just do what I know to do -- Sugars are an issue for me... I no longer call my diet "My HCG Diet Experience" but rather "My TLB Diet Experience!" (TLB are my initials!)  -- I really want to get out of weighing each and every day (sometimes 4 or 5 times a day!) -- I want to weigh in 1 time per week... and just track what I do each week... right now it is LOW CARB -- grapefruit juice and salads and protein -- really it is no different than any other labled "Low Carb" diet -- yes I have carbs, good carbs.. I have veggies everyday at lunch and dinner -- I have some cheese (not tons!) I have protein, not TONS -- just a normal portion - but if I want more of anything I eat protein... and I am not snacking between meals... I do have some Chocolate Delight at my meals which is only Coconut Oil/cocoa and stevia with a few nuts in it... and I am drinking water -- I have been having 1 cup of coffee with hwc and xylitol -- I have been having Olive Oil/Balsamic Vinegar as dressing --  I really do not know what else to do to get the weight off.... I know I have to work in the exercise.  I purchased a stretch band and will begin using that.. I will do it 4 times this week.. that is my goal (for the number of reps of exercises that came with the instruction book - no matter what "time" that translates into -- My husband tells me we can walk together as the weather improves....)
When I say I have carbs: I have Grapefruit juice (100% unsweetened at each meal) and lettuce with red onion, tomatoes, artichoke hearts, and cheese as a basic salad-- with protein in it (either chicken or beef) -- Or on the side, I have a protein -- I have fat at each meal... not HIGH-- but adequate!  The fat would be olive oil in my dressing -- or cd-- or sauteing my chicken/beef in some oil/butter -- I do have taco salads (salsa, ground beef, lettuce, cheese, sour cream and occasionally guacamole, and red onion... ) -- I really can't see anything wrong with this.. .My protein is not as High as I have had it in the past... My veggies are about 6 loosely packed cups per day -- my fats are average-- and the only carbs are in my veggies and juice -- Protein and green for meals -- water, and some cd... this can't be bad!  Weighed 217.8 yesterday -- If I drop about 5 pounds this week, I know this will work for me... My friend tells me consistency is key!  and she is SO RIGHT!!!  so I want to do what I know to do, and not look back.... If my weight does not drop -- I really do not know what else to try!  Cut out more fat and more  protein? really?  Surely not.. .we will see.... how these next 2 weeks go and see what transpires!  God is good no matter what - -He makes me worth more than what the scales make me feel! 




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Today's info

Yesterday I ate:
Roast prepared with lite soy sauce and onion soup with green beans
tuna with a small amount of mayo
flounder
small amount of nuts
small piece of cheese
1 cup of coffee with half and half with stevia


I was up 1.2 this morning!  making my weight at 210.6

PRoblem: Not enough calories or protein! I gotta get that in!

Today so far:
small amount of nuts
Cheese and dill pickles
sauteed chicken on a salad with ranch dressing
2 egg whites
Planning on having Taco Salad for supper -- fixing to go eat a protein snack -- of what? I have no idea!
I am drinking my water, but need to drink more of it!

Weight today

My weight today was 212.6 -- Gotta get the next 14 lbs off QUICK!
Menu today:

1 grilled chicken salad with ranch
2 tbs Pecans
some cheddar cheese for snack
Water
Hamburger Patty with 1 piece of bacon and some cheese
salad with butter lettuce/red onion/ tomato with Italian dressing
1 avacado
Pecans for snack

May have a coffee for dessert, not sure yet! --
This menu was lower in protein than I needed... I think.;...
had 1 cup unsweetened grapefruit juice also. Let's see what the scales to tomorrow!

HUGE UPDATE!!!

OK... I have been like on BREAK since the last time I posted in!  In my last post I was 193 pounds!  Well... I would like to say I am that still or less... however, that would not be true!  I found it terribly hard to focus on loosing the weight as my adoption grew closer -- we traveled to China-- I had good intentions, but they were just that, intentions!  I had gained to 198 before China (Oct. 2012) -- and surprisingly enough, I did not gain in China -- when I ate terribly unhealthy while there! We returned home Nov. 1 - I tried to get back on track... I would do good, then bad, good, then bad... Holidays were here, stress from different corners of life -- and here I am -- I weight a whopping 215!!!  But, I am not down and out!  I am getting back on track! Sugar is a drug and enemy, no matter how it comes, in carb form or just raw, I  prefer mine in carb form (breads and potatoes!) it is a drug none the less!  So... as of today, it is out! I have to get my weight under control!  I have to get it where it needs to be and formulate a "lifestyle" that I can live with!  Yes, I hate watching EVERY SINGLE THING! -- but it is either that or stay FAT! I hate fat!  I hate feeling and looking like an unhealthy person!  I want it eliminated!  I am trying this without  HCG! No added hormones!  If I can't loose, then I guess I'll go back on it... but I am trying this the old fashion way -- no sugars/carbs other than that found in low glycemic veggies!  Good fats and a decent amount of protein for the day!  So... as a means of accountability I will use CalorieCount or Fitday.com to track my calories/protein-- or just post on here to keep a record! 
I will also take a picture, and track my weight like I did on HCG -- if I have fruit, only those that HCG allows -- however I did have unsweetened grapefruit juice today -- it was bitterly good!  :)  I am aquiring a taste for it!  I have decided no Xylitol either for at least 2 weeks to get sweetness out of my system! 
Today so far:
1/2 cup chicken salad that I made (cream cheese, chicken, celery and pecans)
1 piece of turkey breast
1 pickle
1/4 cup pecans
Water

I will have baked chicken for supper-- and a can of tuna for snack a little later on....
I have to work to get that protein in there!  I am going to try to make a protein shake if needed to up my protein intake!  I will track my weight tomorrow -- I have to make it down to 193 asap -- I feel good there!  Then from there I want to make it to 163!  then to 153-- I will consider that GOAL!!!! 
Exercise? I hate it!  I don't mind being honest!  I do hate it... however I know I have got to find a way to be more active and get that in there!  My friend tells me if I can just do 30min good 4 times per week and keep it up!  I have to make it happen!  I don't know just how I am going to do it  yet -- but I will do something today, even if it is just for 10 minutes!  It is COLD outside -- so walking does not sound good! 

Here is a picture of where I am today -- these are size 16 pants and they are tighter than they should be and a size 16/18 turtleneck -- I was getting into size 14's very nicely -- so I hate having my clothes be too tight on me right now! I HATE IT!! Food is just a temporal feel good, then you pay for it with  your weight, looks, health, etc!
Here are pics...yes, this hurts me to post them... but I am not concerned with vanity, I am concerned with accountability and the true desire to be in better health.