Load Day 1

Here I go.. Loading is FUN! I have had CFA for Breakfast and Lunch! I will be having Chili 5 way tonight with Razzleberry Pie and Ice Cream! I know what you are thinking... "What Kind of Diet is this anyway?" Yeah, we get to GORGE for 2 days then hit the VLCD (Very Low Calorie Days!) So I will live and enjoy today and tomorrow -- and then hit the grind for the next 40 days! I want to be as close to 190 as I can when this round is done! That means during this round I will hit a major personal goal... to cross the 200 barrier! YEAH BABY!!!! I will scream loudly on that day! My next goal will to hit the 170's! Then the 150's -- then I'll be at goal! So... in reality I have 2 more full rounds to do.. I hope to do this one and 1 more before the end of May -- and do the other in August -- and then learn to maintain for LIFE!!!! That is the plan my friend! I think if I write it down here.. I can come back and remember my ambitions!

Yes, my short term goal is to cross the 200 line-- then the next line is the 170's and that goal is to be a lil' lower weight than my husband... which I have NEVER been! He weighs between 170-175 -- Yes, I will SHOUT that day too! I should be that weight for the summer months... and then if I can loose the last 25 before next fall -- when I replace my Fall/Winter clothing with size 12/14's -- that will be NICE!!!! (maybe a larger cut size 10????? who knows what life will be like...) I am trying to keep my eyes on the prize!!!! When we go to China to get our new family member (remember, we are trying to adopt!) my new daughter won't think she is getting a fat mamma!!!

Today I am a size 18W -- It will be interesting to see what size I end on after this round! Remember it is called "Pounds and Inches!" I know I will loose inches as well as pounds! I just want to be "normal" which I know is a relative term... but I hate being assessed as being "morbid obese" or whatever.... I'll take "overweight" and then I want to be in the "normal" range -- and keep my health up!

This past round was a failure in my book... but I am looking on to brighter days in this round!

Well.. I am wasting time here typing when I could be better spending it by LOADIING!!

Gotta run get a cookie! (nah, just kidding!)... (well.. maybe... :)

ttyl!